patiently anticipating...

no one knows i might be pregnant. well, other than my husband, but he doesn't know when we will know. i've decided to keep it a secret from him until i am for sure, for sure. i thought this blog would be a good way for me to let out all my excitement and anxiety as i wait for this beautiful baby to grow inside me.

here is a little back story to get you up to date on my babymaking progress...
kyle and i got married on october 25, 2008. we decided that we would plan on having a baby as soon as possible.

there were several reasons for this decision:

1. kyle has two amazing little girls who are 7 and 5. we did not want the kid's age differences to be too much greater than they already are.
2. both of our families have been talking about little redheaded boys since we started dating ;)
3. we are ready to continue the beautiful family we already have
4. we LOVe babies!!!

so all that being said, i should find out within the next two or three days whether our first attempts at getting pregnant 'took hold.'

i have been doing research on the beginning stages of pregnancy to try and determine if there is a chance that i am pregnant.

here are some of my current symptoms:
1. i have been sick to my stomach off and on for the past 3 days
2. my boobs are stinkin' sore
3. i had a headache all day today
4. i am tired all the time

according to all the parenting sites i have gone to, these symptoms either mean i am pregnant or about to start...that does a lot of clarifying for me...ugh.

kyle has been telling me for about a week now that he thinks i am pregnant. he has asked me i don't know how many times, if i think i am pregnant. i have told him over and over that i am not going to get excited until i see those two little pink lines. honestly, i think i am but i'm afraid to say it and then find out that i was wrong. that would break my heart. so instead, i'll just keep doubting it. that way, when it really happens, i'll be shocked AND excited! :)

so for now, i am patiently anticipating the arrival of those two little pink lines. i should start on the 21st. two more days to go...