Sesame seed, baby!

alright, so thanksgiving was AMAZINGLY great! it was nice to be able to just lay around and eat good food and watch old home videos and see my family for a little while. we even got to spend a little while talking to darcy and brandon through the webcam on barrett's computer. it was really nice to see their bright, shiny faces. wish they were closer, though.

as always, mom laid out a wonderfully tasty meal: a beautiful turkey, mamaw's good ol' stuffing, green bean casserole, sweet potatoe casserole (with many mini marshmallows), cranberry sauce, turkey gravy, and pea salad. it was awesome!!

clumpy was not very excited about all the food though. if i eat too much, the indigestion is awful, so of course, i ate too much :) and i proceeded to explode the rest of the night. he was definitely a "grumpy clumpy."

but i think he is over it now. i just had a bagel and some chocolate milk for breakfast this morning and he seems pretty okay with that.

i got my weekly email from babycenter today and it says i am now in my 5th week, which means clumpy is now the size of a sesame seed. he's growing! and it also means his little heart divides into chambers this week and starts beating! how exciting is that?!?!?! i cannot wait to see our little clumpy...

i scheduled my ob-gyn appointment on dec. 11 at 10:30. i am SO stinkin' ready to go just to make sure everything is okay. i just feel so sad that he's all alone in there, floating around with nothing to do. (even though at this point he doesn't have arms or legs or eyes or ears or a mouth or anything like that, lol). he is our beautiful little clump though :)

just think, this time next year, little clumpy will be almost 4 months old!!! crazy!!! i cannot wait!

alright, i've gotta go do some work...yay for banks letting us have all the weird holidays off, but not the day after the big ones...blech.

love you all!

not much to say today. just really tired and ready for a break from work. i know i don't do much all day, but that almost makes it worse. kind of dull, really.

baby clumpy is doing good i suppose. still making me feel a little ill and whatnot, but that's not so bad anymore. i am very, very, very tired though. exhaustified. that's me.

there's just too much going on. i feel like crying all the time. blah.

blech...

okay, so today was pretty eventful in my little world. i'm not going to go into any details but i felt like i might have a UTI coming on, so i decided to go into a doctor this morning and get it taken care of before it gets too bad.

well after a full morning of calling dr's and hearing, "we only have appointments in december or we're booked until january 12th," i called an emergency clinic in edmond and they could see me during my lunch hour. sure enough, i did have an infection, so the dr. prescribed me some antibiotics which he said are "as safe as possible. we really don't like pregnant women to take anything." now i feel like poo because i don't want to take something that would hurt clumpy but i have to take care of me too. i just don't feel so great about taking something that might cause issues with my perfect little poppy seed baby. :(

but i have to and i'm just going to believe that God is holding my little baby clumpy in His powerful and amazingly strong protective hands. please, Lord, protect little baby clumpy, we all want to see him so badly.

okay, i feel a little better about all this now. its hard not being able to know for sure that everything is okay in there. i mean, there is nothing i can do to make sure clumpy is okay. just pray and believe, pray and believe.

i'm feeling better, symptoms-wise. i don't have the horrible indigestion as much and i don't feel nauseous at all. my head kind of hurts and my boobs, well, i don't think they are ever going to not hurt. yay for baby clumpy! :) oh and i feel kind of thick around the middle. my clothes still fit but i just don't feel comfortable in anything. yay for growing a human! :)

i guess that's pretty much it for karly and clumpy. i should probably go back to work now and kind of act like i'm doing something. love you all!

baby clumpy...

well, we told everyone. well almost everyone.

saturday night i took one more test "just to make sure." there is just something about seeing those two little lines that reassures me. i mean, at this point i am just having a hard time really believing there is a baby in there, ya know? i guess it's because i can't see it or feel it. the symptoms are definitely there though.

anyways, after i took the test, i had kyle look at it for me, and he just looked at me with this sad expression on his face, and said, 'looks like we're not gonna have a baby...just kidding (smile) you are pregnant!! for sure!" then we kind of jumped around and smiled and were happy.

then my phone rang. it was Mom asking if we wanted some of their leftover pastries. i told her we might and i would let her know if i was heading over there to get some. i got off the phone and told kyle who it was and everything. then we both kind of looked at each other and knew that we should probably tell them tonight because it was just too dang hard keeping it a secret. so...we had bought two bibs earlier that evening...one that said "i love grandpa" and another that said "grandma, where are you?" we wrapped them up and headed over to announce our big baby news.


we got there and talked a little bit about work and food and all that jazz. then we sat down on the couch and started watching the OU/Tech game. (by the way, YAY OU!) then i looked at kyle and he gave me the nod. so i stood up and said, "we got you both a little something to thank you so much for all you did for the wedding and for us. now open them together." mom proceeded to say "you did not have to do that...blah, blah, blah" ;) but i interrupted her because dad was already opening his and i didn't want them to not know at the same time. so she hurried. dad just smiled from ear to ear and mom covered her face with her hands and screamed and cried. it was great! they are both very excited! yay baby!





so then i sent the picture of the pregnancy tests to darcy that said, "do you know what this means?" she called me almost immediately and said, "yes, i know what that means!!!" and she was all excited too. then i talked to her a little while about how i'm feeling and told her about this blog. then i told her about the 3 week prego picture that looked like a clump of white cells that made me sick. and she said, "can we please call your baby clumpy?" and i said YES! that's perfect! so we have now found our perfect baby nickname until we are able to determine whether it is a boy or a girl. yay baby clumpy!!



then i sent the picture to shelby. i waited because mom and dad said she was in a movie. :) i waited just a little while, and then i got the call from her. she said, "are you PREGNANT!!??!!" and i said "YES!!!" screaming was all that was heard on her end. she and her best friend sarah were together, so of course everything i said was heard by both, so they just started screaming and saying "She's having a baby!!" more excitement.

yesterday, Sunday, we went to eat at Old Chicago with Kyle's mom, dad, sisters, niece, and aunt and uncle. after we ate and said goodbye to aunt and uncle, we headed back to our cars, where kyle asked his mom, dena, sheila, and da'lynn to look at a picture of "what he caught" on my cell phone. we showed them the picture of the tests and they all were very excited. they started giving me advice on what to do for morning sickness and nausea and asking how i have been feeling. they are all very excited as well.

then i made calls to my grandparents, who are excited as well. it's just a crazy time of excitement!

i think i have decided on my doctor and will be making a call to make an appointment at lunch today. hopefully i will be able to get in :fingers crossed:

other than all that, kyle and i and our families are very excited! so very ready for baby clumpy!!!

today is the day...

this morning, about 3:30, kyle got called out because the frick was down. i was lying there, trying to fall back to sleep, when i thought, "hey, i could take my pregnancy test now." then i went back and forth in my head, should i wait a few more days to see if i miss my period, or should i just go ahead and do it. i decided to go ahead and do it. so i pulled myself out of my warm, cozy bed, scooted to the bathroom and peed on a stick. the instructions said it would take 3 minutes before i would be able to tell if there was one line or two. i thought i would run to kitchen and get a drink of water and then come back and see if it worked. however, as i was setting it down on the counter, this is what i saw...

EEK!!!! we are having a BABY!!!!!!

so now i am in a state of excited confusion. should we tell everyone right away? or wait until we have had the first doctor's appointment? should we wait until Christmas when we can do it in a fun way or mail everyone pacifiers to announce it? holy cow! this is SO amazing! we are having a baby!!!

i have signed up on babycenter.com for their week by week pregnancy calendar. yesterday i received my week 4 update. they say that our little embryo is the size of a poppy seed...that is extremely tiny. and it kind of looks like two bubbles with some lines down the middle. isn't that precious? lol

i was planning on telling kyle about the baby this evening. i was going to buy a little onesie that said ' i love daddy' on it and give it to him tonight when he got home from work. however, as i was driving to work, i told him to expect a surprise tonight (stupid me!) and he guessed it. i'm kind of glad because i didn't want to keep it from him too long, but i wish i had been right there when he found out. we are both very very excited though!

now begins the search for a good ob/gyn. i have to find one on our insurance list, so hopefully i will be able to find a good one that i like. blech. not fun.

but hey, i am having a BABY!!!!!! YYYAAYYY!!

alright, gonna go do some searching. wish me luck!

just a few more days...

waiting.

i'm not gonna lie. this is no fun at all. my stomach feels queasy all day, off and on, and my back is killing me. i'm cranky and poor kyle has to deal with me. this is just the possible beginning. i don't even know if it's pregnancy, but it's just no fun.

if i'm not pregnant, i think i might have the flu. i really hope its not the flu, but a beautiful little baby boy who has blonde curly hair and bright blue eyes. i think i'm going to be really sad if it turns out that i'm not pregnant yet. however, i know that when it does happen, it will be the perfect time for our little person. he/she will be born at the perfect time in the perfect place for whatever God has in store for him/her.

today, i have probably been doing the worst thing i could do. i've been searching through baby sites looking at the meaning of names. kyle and i already have our boy and girl names picked out, but we aren't telling anyone except family. just want to keep it a secret for a little while. much like i am keeping my "almost" pregnancy a secret from everyone. i like surprises a LOT.

at this moment, if i am pregnant, our baby looks like a tiny tiny ball. it is now classified as an embryo and is no longer a blasotcyst. i'm really happy about that because i saw a picture of a blastocyst and it made me want to throw up. it was just a "clump" of cells and everyone who knows me, knows i hate clumps of things. blech. i don't want to feel that way about our baby. ;)

maybe i am getting ahead of myself, but it just feels like there is a baby in there. i'm so ready to know for sure. come on tomorrow, hurry up and get here!!!!

patiently anticipating...

no one knows i might be pregnant. well, other than my husband, but he doesn't know when we will know. i've decided to keep it a secret from him until i am for sure, for sure. i thought this blog would be a good way for me to let out all my excitement and anxiety as i wait for this beautiful baby to grow inside me.

here is a little back story to get you up to date on my babymaking progress...
kyle and i got married on october 25, 2008. we decided that we would plan on having a baby as soon as possible.

there were several reasons for this decision:

1. kyle has two amazing little girls who are 7 and 5. we did not want the kid's age differences to be too much greater than they already are.
2. both of our families have been talking about little redheaded boys since we started dating ;)
3. we are ready to continue the beautiful family we already have
4. we LOVe babies!!!

so all that being said, i should find out within the next two or three days whether our first attempts at getting pregnant 'took hold.'

i have been doing research on the beginning stages of pregnancy to try and determine if there is a chance that i am pregnant.

here are some of my current symptoms:
1. i have been sick to my stomach off and on for the past 3 days
2. my boobs are stinkin' sore
3. i had a headache all day today
4. i am tired all the time

according to all the parenting sites i have gone to, these symptoms either mean i am pregnant or about to start...that does a lot of clarifying for me...ugh.

kyle has been telling me for about a week now that he thinks i am pregnant. he has asked me i don't know how many times, if i think i am pregnant. i have told him over and over that i am not going to get excited until i see those two little pink lines. honestly, i think i am but i'm afraid to say it and then find out that i was wrong. that would break my heart. so instead, i'll just keep doubting it. that way, when it really happens, i'll be shocked AND excited! :)

so for now, i am patiently anticipating the arrival of those two little pink lines. i should start on the 21st. two more days to go...